Broken Bones

If someone ask me, "What's something that best describes you?" I don't think I'd have just one answer. there are million versions of myself depending on who I'm with. I can be loud and talkative. But with others, I'm quiet  distant, or even a little arrogant. I'm just a 15 year old girl still figuring herself out, and I've changed a lot over the years. I used to be that one classmate who had many friends, always in the middle of the crowd. But now , I find comfort in a smaller circle just three people, and one i trust deeply. but that doesn't make me less. it just makes me real 

One thing that hasn't changed is my need for VALIDATION. I want to be the best. I want to be perfect .My life revolves around my studies. I work so hard but it always feels like it's not been enough. There's always someone better, someone who achieves things effortlessly while i struggle silently. it breaks me sometimes. But as much as  fall apart, I still find strength to keep going. Like broken bones, people say it grew back stronger. Every challenge chips away a piece of me but build something tougher, wiser , and more resilient in this place 

I've learned that life isn't always fair and no matter how much effort we put in things don't always go our way. But giving up isn't an option. I believe were all allowed to cry, to feel overwhelmed, but we must not let those feelings stop us us. I am not perfect, but i am learning and growing. So maybe the thing that describes me is not a word but a idea, that broken bones grew back stronger and better. 

I hate crowds and loud noises. I love getting lost in books , specially mysteries books. Books stretch my imagination and offer me peace that the real world rarely gives. I recently finished " A good girl guide to murder" and " The naturals". People say life is boring , but I disagree. I find joy in the learning and comfort in stories. 

That's who I am. A not so perfect girl but I am always learning, always growing and I will never give up. I know I'll become a better version of myself, not overnight, but eventually. Every challenge, every moment or pain is shaping me into someone stronger. 

Reference:

Barnes, J. L. (2014). Killer instinct. Little Brown and Company.